二、久违的宁静（肉渣）

Alex住原离傅谈笑住远。朋友合租叁室厅带院房，很厨房。常院烤肉喝啤酒，她禁羡慕活。她住，连明火，更烤肉。

Alex室友已房间。让她坐客厅沙，给她倒杯水，凉。

她暗叹息，，实需杯热水或杯热茶才感慰藉。

她力抬眼皮, “D yu have tea?”

Alex微微扬头，思考两秒钟, “U, I dn’t think s. Nne f us drink tea here, but I d ake se great FAB. Is that OK?”

“Sunds fine.”

Alex冰箱拿几瓶酒杯柠檬汽水，鼓捣阵，端给她杯颜色很酒。

“Frenh 75. My favurite. W, , , take it easy! ”

等Alex完最句话，她已牛饮半。

直Alex很久以，傅谈笑才知，谓FAB（flavred alhli beverage），果味酒精，虽果味，但酒精含量点含糊。

“Yu ere genuinely thirsty, aren’t yu? Pr girl. Yu ust have been s sared.”

“Weren't yu?” 她禁反问。刚才确实异乎常冷静持，怎做呢？

Alex搂住她坐毯，她讲1990以伦敦历恐怖袭击。讲妈妈，讲朋友，讲己遇险几次，听她身冷汗。她紧握杯手颤颤，猛灌口酒。

Alex顿顿，嘴唇落她额头，“I feel srry that yu shuld have been thrugh this. We ay all these peple ards all e ant, but e haven’t been able t stp the. This rld is s rng.”

傅谈笑紧紧回抱住，眼泪渐渐涌。

昏暗客厅，Alex言摸她头，嘴唇啄吻她头顶丝。

“Oh y fuking gd!” 客厅另头房间忽传声情绪激动咒骂，紧接高黑影像团旋风样卷，长长手臂伸按亮客厅灯。

“Alex! Yu little fuker! Thank gd yu are alive!” 黑影Alex，脸露惊喜表情，并扑架势，傅谈笑赶紧往旁边让。

“Oh shit, I a s srry. I thught…, I as… .Bldy fuk!”黑影忽坐边傅谈笑，懊恼咒骂两句，像责怪己唐突——短短五秒钟四句脏话。

“Nt a prble. I’ Tanxia.”傅谈笑忍住笑伸手。直她才空端详眼位Alex室友。红棕色头，短短胡须，粉白皮肤，现正以滑稽式涨通红。

Alex感觉再话室友激动变形，慈悲向她介绍“This hap here is Aarn, y favurite Irish guy in the rld. Aarn, this grgeus lady here is Tanxia.”

“Oh, luky yu Alex! Anyay, have yu seen the nes? There as an attak at King’s Crss! I just anted t kn yu ere OK.”

“Thanks ate, e’re OK n. This yung lady as still in a bit f a shk, but yu just ade her sile again.”Alex重新把她搂回，手指温柔刮蹭她胳膊。

“Gd t kn. All right then, I’ll let yu be.” Aarn捶Alex拳，她笑，身回房间。

傅谈笑刚才阴郁情绪被Aarn打扰知觉散，紧接疲惫袭，她把头轻轻靠Alex肩膀，闭眼睛。

恍惚间她感觉Alex横抱她，门开关，接她挨柔软枕头温暖被，睡省。

第早，太阳透薄薄纱照房间，傅谈笑情愿睁开眼。

早晨太宁静温馨，像昨晚切。

Alex熟睡，轻浅呼吸声听她底软。她温柔吻额头。

她四处遍，客厅找她包。她翻包便携漱口水湿纸巾，卫间把己简单打理。

回Alex卧室，换姿势依熟睡。

她安静床边坐，注视儿。WhatsApp编条信息给, “I had a gd tie yesterday, despite all the has. Yu lk ht hen yu are sleeping. XD.”

她身准备离开。

刚站被双结实臂膀抱住。Alex把头搁她肩窝，闷闷“I an’t believe yu are ding this t e.”

她笑, “What did I d? Yu are aking e sund like an evil an.”

“Yes yu are, leaving like this. ”容拒绝把她拉床，赤裸温暖身压住她。

傅谈笑蹬掉鞋，抬手，圈住Alex脖，低语，“OK. My bad. H an I ake it up t yu, innent by?”

“Well, e’ll see.” 呢喃，嘴唇靠近她，话音消失贴近。

吻很热烈，英挺鼻尖她贴，舌头细致描绘她嘴唇。

嘴唇颜色像比平浅些，因为刚醒吗？因为阳光？

Alex似乎感觉她胡思乱想，因为忽轻轻咬她唇。她含住唇，舌尖温唇珠游曳。伸舌头，模仿她样舔她唇，卷住她放。

她腾缠脖双手，顺脊椎感受肌肉轮廓。斜肌、竖脊肌、腰肌……? Alex喘息陡粗重。意乱情迷吻她柔软耳垂细嫩修长脖颈，身体往挪挪，已隆硬贴住她耻骨，随动轻重撞击她。

她身体烫，忍住像猫样呻吟。

倏，Alex撑住半身，隔段距离她。她睁开眼睛，依笑盈盈。目光移，她内穿靛蓝色毛衣，外穿黑色皮衣，紧身牛仔裤，身材凹凸致。眉毛弯弯，眼睛闪闪，显几纯真；鼻头巧，嘴唇丰满，透几肉欲。长随意披散，身体舒展，香软。

Alex眼仿佛两团火燃烧，身体烫像话。“Fuk, Tanxia yu are s ht.”

腾手隔空放她胸部，问她“Is it Ok?”

她觉点忍，但忍住笑“It’s OK, but I’ nt n any birth ntrl. S aybe e shuld stik t the send base.”

“Ah. Yu ight as ell kill e n.” 深吸口气，隔衣服吻她胸部，吻她巴。翻身挨她躺。

她忍些难耐，问，“S yu dn’t have a nd either.”

“N, but I ill g get a tn f the later tday.”

她哈哈笑。间她恶趣味冒，她“Dn’t be sad. I’ll tell yu a jke that’s perfet fr this ent.”

Alex奈苦笑，握住她手。

“S there as this girl h had been dating a by fr a hile. They ere aking ut and things gt heated s they deided t have sex. The girl fished arund in her bag and fund se Fire and Ie nds that her friend Jane gave her beause Jane as afraid f her ther finding the. The byfriend happily put ne nd n and they had sex. 10 inutes later, the girl ried ‘y vagina is n fire!’ and the by ent ‘y dik feels s ld’. That as the first tie they had sex and the last tie they used Fire and Ie nds. Hahaha! What a stry!”

Alex笑，狠狠啄她鼻。

“I ill eet ith y GP and see if I uld get ne f thse birth ntrls.” 她正色。

Alex坐她，握她手认真 “I’ srry I have ated like a dik. But kn that it’s nt just sex that I ant. I adre yu and respet yu, Tanxia. I dn’t ant t seh fre it n yu if yu are nt ready. I kn se birth ntrls an have serius side effets n en, and e an rk it ut ithut using the. Cnds are fine by e.”

她坐吻住，显些激动。Alex投入回吻她。

她以性关系男朋友很少她开诚布讨论性，傅谈笑求戴安全套，但似乎觉使性快感打折扣。且避孕式解非常少，甚至以很知，提安全期避孕体外射精避孕。傅谈笑口头解释，给科普，但希望她提戴套式。她失望至极，以段关系持续久她提手。很难接受，问条件错，历高，礼貌，外形，两相处什问题，为什手。最气头终究些很伤话，导致手程很愉快。

Alex刚才番话让她幡醒悟。原她问题，她太矫情，她求太高。情侣应该样互相关，互相协商妥协。果根本乎性感受，并且把避孕女责任，跟男点关系，问题，。

她动容“Thank yu fr saying that Alex. Really.”

Alex虽知她突伤感怎回，但坚抱紧她，安抚吻她耳朵头顶。

两以。傅谈笑预约她医，她谈论靠谱避孕措施，安全套、输精管/输卵管结扎、安装宫内节育器、皮埋植、避孕针、孕激素贴片、短效长期避孕药，最她选避孕针，每12周注射次，虽体重增加骨密度降风险，但权衡之她比较接受。

她给Alex消息“I just gt the birth ntrl sht.”

很快回消息，问她哪，舒服。

她，切。

Alex“Aarn and se friends ask if e’d lve t g aping n 11th. It’s sehere n the Isle f Wight. Stunning beahes, ar eather and abve all, a strng and sexy guy. What d yu say?”

她笑，回，“Sunds great. What d I need t d?”

，“Nthing. I ill e and pik yu up. Just be ready t have fun.”